The colour is gone

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What is there to talk about, i mean i could talk about school or practise that i have tonight from 8-10 oh wow that will be fun (actually it will) but that would be advoiding what is actually on my mind, i dunno how many people will understand the true nature of this post but i want to say that I want closure i guess one way to put it would be...I want to talk to someone cause the last time i talked to them it was odd and she said we needed to talk and i agreeded, don;t worry people who don't know it's not the usual relationship "we need to talk" shortly followed by the "it's not you it's me" no no this is just a friend and i agreeing that things are not right between us and i know it's my fault. I'm sorry for it.
My life was so colourful, i was happy and it was great, i love colour i makes life interesting and fun. But what happened on the weekend makes me focus on other things. It's no ones fault i feel this way but my own, no on is making me feel bad about something that i shouldn't feel bad about. But Honestly it feels like the colour is gone from my world, I shouldn't be this upset about it but i am. I think this is the first time i've ever truly wished that i could go back in time and THINK just think, honestly. The people who this concerns know what i'm talking about.

*time passes*

I talked to her tonight. I left a message for her and then i saw her on msn and i asked if i could call and she said yes\. I thought it would help things talking to her, and i think it did, i mean she is still mad at me and believe me she does have every right to but now i know exactly what i di wrong so i can better address the issue now.
I feel horrible have i made this clear? i think so. I AM SO EMO this is crazy, am i overreacting?
I take comfort in the fact that our relationship is so strong and i'm confident that our friendship will easily pull through this but i hate making her upset\mad. I'm the cause of it and i hate myself for it.
I couldn't sleep last night
I thought of this
Of who i hurt,
about my actions and how i regret them
I'm sorry,
G'night guys,

-Pete-

P.S Will took this picture (there you happy now man? way to take away from my sentimental post)